The Day I Realized I Was in a Cult
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For generations, Mormon temple ceremonies required members to make secret vows and promise never to reveal them. By the time I went through, many of the most disturbing parts were removed... but they kept the secret handshakes, magic underwear, chanting in a circle, and the new name ceremony. I entered expecting the most spiritual experience of my life and left feeling confused, frightened, and deeply betrayed.
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A few resources I mention in the video:
Lyrics to the children’s song “I love to see the temple”: https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/media/music/songs/i-l…
Reenactment of the washing and anointing: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qKG5kMnZZcM
Detailed breakdown of ceremony and the ceremony’s changes throughout the years: http://www.ldsendowment.org/initiatory.html
Words of endowment as of 2019: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1EsqO202vqHMivWMYVUzamnMq…
Mormon temple endowment explained in a flow chart: https://www.ldsmormontemple.com/
Secret recording of the washing and anointing ceremony: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IS06IPuVlO4&t=68s
New name temple oracle: http://www.fullerconsideration.com/TempleNameOracle/
Secret recording of the temple film: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5VrsFEiTpsQ&t=1649s
General conference corpus: https://www.lds-general-conference.org/
Stories of families sacrificing in order to be sealed in the temple: https://www.thechurchnews.com/2018/7/30/23221402/by-bus-a…
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Other resources that may interest you:
*Why I left the Mormon Church: https://www.mormontruths.com/why-i-left-the-mormon-church/
*My Mormon endowment explained video: (https://youtu.be/_jXk53GhZr0)
*Mormon garments explained video: (https://youtu.be/CZVrRWfDHYU)
*Every rule I followed as a Mormon: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYoCjhT2098&t=4396s)
*My Mormon mission was a waste: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uicAn4l9z4&t=18s)
*Complete story of my Mormon wedding: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7gLAVyGy5tk&t=961s)
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A few resources I mention in the video:
Lyrics to the children’s song “I love to see the temple”: https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/media/music/songs/i-l…
Reenactment of the washing and anointing: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qKG5kMnZZcM
Detailed breakdown of ceremony and the ceremony’s changes throughout the years: http://www.ldsendowment.org/initiatory.html
Words of endowment as of 2019: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1EsqO202vqHMivWMYVUzamnMq…
Mormon temple endowment explained in a flow chart: https://www.ldsmormontemple.com/
Secret recording of the washing and anointing ceremony: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IS06IPuVlO4&t=68s
New name temple oracle: http://www.fullerconsideration.com/TempleNameOracle/
Secret recording of the temple film: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5VrsFEiTpsQ&t=1649s
General conference corpus: https://www.lds-general-conference.org/
Stories of families sacrificing in order to be sealed in the temple: https://www.thechurchnews.com/2018/7/30/23221402/by-bus-a…
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Other resources that may interest you:
*Why I left the Mormon Church: https://www.mormontruths.com/why-i-left-the-mormon-church/
*My Mormon endowment explained video: (https://youtu.be/_jXk53GhZr0)
*Mormon garments explained video: (https://youtu.be/CZVrRWfDHYU)
*Every rule I followed as a Mormon: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYoCjhT2098&t=4396s)
*My Mormon mission was a waste: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uicAn4l9z4&t=18s)
*Complete story of my Mormon wedding: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7gLAVyGy5tk&t=961s)
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@SparkyTom1
As a former Freemason, when I saw the temple ceremonies though a hidden camera on YouTube I was surprised how much of it was plagiarized masonic ritual. I was literally able to chant along with parts of it.
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@logansanderson107
“I never had to do the suicide pact like my parents.”
THE WHATNOW?!!!
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@PolllyEsther
My 6 yr old daughter came home sobbing hysterically because her father and I weren't sealed in the temple so she was denied making a craft of a construction paper chain that represented being sealed. This awful woman told my child that I wouldn't be her mother after we all died because "your parents weren't married in the temple". She was completely traumatized.
Literally that was the moment for me.
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@Perfect1583
52:55 They dressed you up like Quaker oatmeal and taught you gang signs 😂😂😂
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@butterflysystem4012
Lmao that's why the new name is secret. If people told their friends they'd realize they were all given the same name 🤣
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@Deliah_36
Today I sent the letter resigning my membership to this church. The feeling is so liberating and peaceful.
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@lolno5947
as someone who was never mormon, the fact that they have a literal video that they show on a projector is so funny to me
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@Mina.Unfiltered
The concept of getting into heaven via a secret handshake is so silly. I’m glad you and your husband freed yourselves!
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@probablyadog3629
I can't imagine going through this whole sacred ceremony only to be told your new sacred name is Deborah 😂
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@lukatv9861
For me its the fact that adam is seen as "lord", "king", etc. And eve is just... A companion. Not a queen or a lady or even a wife. No. Just company for the first man so he's not lonely. Gives me kind of "easily replaceable" vibe.
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@rubyraaa420
When I was in middle school I was obsessed with One Direction & I would put their names into the prayer box in the temple😂 I was being so serious too, I wanted them to be blessed by God. Im disappointed they don’t read the names out loud because it would be absolutely hilarious to have a group of Mormons pray for Harry Styles in their holy temple.
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@mudk3997
Hello Alyssa. I too was in a Cult. I am a palestenian 42 year old man. Born and raised in Denmark. I was in an islamic Wahabi Cult. My parents joined this extreme group. Violence, jihadi killing videos, sexual abuse and mentally abuse was the norm. Complete social and thoughts control. I have PTSD and depression and have had difficulties not being angry and bitter. I am so happy that You got out and seem happy and awake. It motivates me to watch this video and see how u are dealing with this. Thank You. You are a very brave and strong woman. Good luck in life :)
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@annamariaml9137
I never understood why my 19 year old sister left her endowment ceremony looking SO freaked out. Now I get it.
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@etatauri
I am of the opinion that any organization that withholds information of its core function is not there for the benefit of the people, but rather for the control of the people.
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@idontwanttousemyrealnamema4492
I went through the temple to be “sealed” to my family. I was underage at the time but after it happened EVERYONE in my family was so excited and asked me what I thought. I blurted out “you all looked ridiculous”. From then I was deemed the black sheep of the family.
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@IsabellaS81401
The names are interesting to me. I grew up Catholic. I was baptized, made my first communion, and was confirmed in the Catholic Church. When we are confirmed, we have to pick a godly name. It has to be the name of a Saint and I picked Aquilina, because I thought that was cool and unique. So it’s nice we got to pick our own.
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@elvishsoda
As an atheist, I find it so wild that they literally make you watch A MOVIE in this "holiest of places". Doesn't it feel unserious to see? I mean seriously, a movie? is it not in some way blasphemous to emulate a holy scene? Thank you so much for this amazing video and for granting insight into something I've never heard about before.
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@becca_ish
Going through the temple was the final, traumatic straw for me. After years of really trying to build up my spirituality and save my failing mormon marriage, I finally felt ready to get sealed to my husband in the temple. I had never been, and was completely unprepared. I, too, was expecting a beautiful, spiritual, life changing experience. It was definitely life changing, but I was so freaked out. This is what my life has been building up to? What the fuck just happened?? Is what I was thinking afterwards. The whole time I'm having to fake a smile and tell everyone how great it was. I never went back, and left mormonism and my idiot husband behind at the same time and I've never been happier!
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@beek.4860
Not Mormon - when the Washington DC temple was open for visitors during renovations, I went to take the tour out of sheer curiosity. I got to a room that looked like a crappy hotel lobby and read a sign saying "You are standing in one of the holiest places on Earth." It took everything I had not to burst out laughing right there. I can't imagine how it would feel to be raised in the church and realize that the place you'd been told was supposed to be transcendentally holy looked like the inside of a Holiday Inn.
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